The Storm before the Calm

Amends

In the storm before the calm I'm at my weakest

blowing like the tall grass in the breeze

falling like the leaf that just gave up

the first to drop down from the autumn trees

I forget that in the storm I should seek love

to help me fight against the raging gale

instead I raise my voice and curse the sun

because it warms my skin to no avail

I forget that anger is not my chosen way

and makes my soul less than it should be

I am the one who is strongest when in love

and in touch with the essential loving me

I guess I'm just a human on this planet
learning that strength comes from within my heart

loving all the ones I've ever loved before
exactly as I loved them from the start

In the storm before the calm I sometimes falter
and lash out in my pain without a thought

so I make amends and remember I love big

and forever and for good, no matter what

I am sorry if I've hurt you in my weakness
and I hold you in my heart still safe and warm

perhaps I should be more grateful for the moments

of the calm that comes just before the storm.